Answer:
1. The speaker want us to understand that she/he always put himself/herself in harm ways because she thinks that this is where he/she's most effective or somewhat this is the way he/she may help others and the only way to make himself/herself to be valid to others.
Ps: Sorry if you think this is wrong and doesn't make sense but i hope it may help you and take care and don't pressure urself! <33
