Answer:
i set the goal of bettering myself, which is a very broad goal and even then i didnt understand what i meant by that but i hoped my unconcious knew what i was trying and so i help on to that goal for this whole year.
First i started by doing basic things like running, and cold showers meditating. looking into spiritualilty for guidence (i had lost/rejected my self thats why i had set the goal) which was sort of a mistake cause i dive into everything head first and learn the consqences later. But eventually i got tired, i realized i didnt have a clue what i was doing but i still stuck to that idea if better ones self
So i began asking from help, to god, my higher self just to someone. And little by little i built a stronger idea of what bettering my self meant, i started to questions of my self (i am autistic and always had lied to get my way and brushed it off easily because i didnt have a grasp of morals) first i started to question wheather i was a good person (sutterly at first) but eventually moment from my past came up and i had to deal with them
i started noticing when i was lying even if it wasnt a major lie, i started realizing how i wasnt acting my self, how i didnt even know who i was cause i never asked. I also spent time wondering what morals i beileve in, asking questions like what my pholisohy was.
these might sound like simple questions but to even get to the point where i had courage to ask, it took 6 months of trail and error, finding new hobbies. speaking to people.
i havent mastered it because its a life long journey but atleast i have become more aware, i use to not care about anyone but no i take the time to understand people
i use to beileve everyone had it better then my idolizing evem the worst people but no i know, no knes got control of life.
how i achieved this is by observing what i do day to day and after a year of that i realize i dont know much about myself cause i never asked and now ive got so far with just the idea of i wanted to change and become the best person i xould be.
